1. Cloud’s Buster Sword from FF7
2. Black Parade by My Chemical Romance
3. Kaylee Frye from Firefly

Ok so i just watched V for Vendetta again so this is gonna sound really distopian but trust me i would much rather have a sunny outlook.

I see people on a daily basis who obviously are oblivious to the outside world around them and the massive changes that have come to pass since even before 9-11. People who are happy in their little lives and there own little issues. Kind of like the matrix these people are given what they want and are spoon fed what everyone wants them to know as truth. They are blinded by entertainment and drown in distractions. They are ignorant to the truth because they do not care to know it.

I am the opposite as are a lot of people i know. We see the freedoms that have been stolen from us under the falsehood of security. We see the destruction of the human kindness replaced instead by the massive greed and me first attitude that plagues the generation just graduating High School. This generation raised by the baby boomers who had everything handed to them but always wanted more has created a even worse second spawn of that attitude with a almost psychotic cruelty to others as long as they are never held accountable.

I may be cracked in the head which i will gladly admit but the way i was raised and the way i grew up has made me look at almost everything in a skewed and different way. I am not able to be blinded by anything around me because i look right through it to what is really there. It scares most people at how much i study human interaction, emotions, communication, basics of psychology just so i can look at someone and within minutes know who and what they really are behind everything. I think this is why people hate to play games with me even though i adore poker and chess. But with all of this i am free. Freedom however comes with a price.

Those of us who really see what is going on in the world and don’t allow ourselves to be shuffled into the rest of the deck find ourselves in the position of being in almost crushing pain every time we turn on the tv set or pick up a news paper. Sadly most people who are free also care a great deal about everyone around them. This care translates quickly into pain in a world where everyone who doesn’t fit gets spit out of the machine and destroyed slowly as everyone around watches and does nothing. You’d think in a country where religion is so popular that once in a while that “we are all one” thing would actually stick. Maybe that is because most of the ignorant use religion as a way to pay for the bad they have done in a way to give up responsibility for it or like most politicians these days these use it as a mass hypnosis to get you to follow along with the rest of their bullshit story. I like religions i really do. At times it’s a beautiful thing used to bring about peace and end suffering. Most of the time it’s used as an excuse to fight, take, and destroy for no reason other than greed.

So you may at this point be asking A: Is this guy fucking crazy? or B: What can i do? Well as for A i can admit freely to being a lot different than most people, if that makes me crazy well so be it. As for B their is not a whole lot. You can try to be an activist and change things but that rarely works. Your best option is to open your eyes and see the truth and then show others how to do the same. Weather it’s the fake in V of the people walking down the streets in masks or the real of the million man march change was created. We as the people are so much bigger than what controls us. It scares them at times which is why they in turn scare us back. Ignore their scare tactics and embrace the truth as one. Maybe then will all be free not just the tortured few.

Found this on a friends myspace page and i have to say it’s damn accurate. Oddly most Capricorn meanings also fit me dang well so i guess i am just lined up with the average lol.

“You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don’t spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you’re snobby or aloof, but you’re just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it’s killing you.
You’re the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day… and still have the energy to party all night.
Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It’s easy to get you excited… which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don’t stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.”

So in this post i am going to tear the shit out of a lot of things….at times it will be funny so read it and learn :D.

5 steps how not to be a prick from age 0-30

Step 1: Stop using the term gay to mean bad, dumb, stupid, or any other veiled reason for your massive homophobia. Also ghey is not an acceptable replacement and if you use it i will be coming to your house to headbutt you in the face. I am not sure where this all started but the popular use of this sexual orientation being used as a derogatory term really makes me feel i am back in the age where terms for black people were used in the same way….yup kids your a racist ass hole so knock it the fuck off. To add to this i actualy once got in a fight with someone because they said that ghey wasn’t bad cause it was spelled different, everyone used it, and it didn’t mean gay….ya whatever you gotta tell yourself when your rotting in hell cause your still a fucking racist.

Step 2: Just because you graduated with an english degree and are sad cause you can’t get a job doesn’t give you the right to come on the internet and correct everyones grammer. Typing fast leads to errors and in the fast paced nature of irc and other chats you type fast or your left behind. Mistakes will happen, stop pointing them out! No one thinks your smarter than them they think you are douchebag. On this note us shitty text message language typers need to learn a language and use it. Stop with all the u r bullshit. Type out the fucking word.

Step 3: Are you one of the people that go on your blog and say every movie, game, etc sucks? Ok now would be a good time for you to let yourself loose the mortal coil cause god knows your never going to be happy. Jadded, spoiled, privileged, pretentious, excess sucking, people make me wanna puke.

Step 4: Stop treating women like shit. Yeah guys you know who you are. These macho my cock is bigger than yours guys who wouldn’t know how to spell make love no less do it. Women are not a 2 pronged hole to jam a plug into. They are human beings with feelings and emotions just like the more evolved form of us men. Oh and women guys aren’t a dildo with out a brain. Stop treating them like it. On that same remark if i hear another woman say “my man is trained” your getting headbutted too.

Step 5: Just because you can doesn’t mean you should. Drinking, drugs, sex, etc are all pretty easily available to most americans at least. Doesn’t mean you need any of….yes even sex. Sorry but i may be old school prude on this but sex to me is to be shared by people who love each other not just so you can get one off. There is a thing called masterbation that doesn’t lead to disease, pregnancy, broken hearts, shattered lives, or crazy stalkers and it’s even approved by a lot of more forward thinking religions. You know a virgin wedding is a beautiful thing….wait i am sorry no one able to read this has any idea what this is because your all to busy fucking at 14 in a basement with 7 guys for money…..As for the other stuff being stoned all day, puking your guys out cause you drank to much refined gasoline, getting cancer from smoking all are really attractive features so why don’t you do them more when your out at the bar looking for the future Mr. Right or Mrs. Today.

Step 5b: Any person who won’t get married before sex cause they are affraid the sex will be bad seriously needs to look at what being in love means and get back to me. There are quite a few 60+ year relationships where sex went out the window a long time ago and they are still very happy people. There are a lot of what ifs that can enter a relationship and distroy the sexual part. Building on a foundation of love, comitment, and a genuine intrest in what someone has to say will last a lot longer that that big dick will.

So there you go me being a prick so you don’t have to. Maybe you all will take some of this advice so i can live my life not worrying about you fucking up the world for the rest of us. BTW in a kinder more gentile form everything i just mentioned is in books on common sense and manners….ooops sorry forgot those went out with EXTREME Generation X….I guess we are all just fucked.

Anyone who remotely follows me online should read this bad boy…I know it will be long but hey deal with it :D.

TwitWiki: This project consumed a good bit of my life quickly but has now slowed into what i wanted it to be all along a comunity project with guidence by myself to keep it on the rails. Honestly i am really impressed by what we have done from just a small little idea i had to a massive over 10,000 viewed wiki with about as much info as you would ever want on all of TWiT. I do have to be honest though. Leo not having fixed the link on twitlive.tv still bugs me…i and a lot of others have put a lot of work into this and it has no featured roll where it would need to be.

Me and The Wiki: As some who know me best i am a bit of a loner and being center of attention with this wiki thing has kind of drove me bonkers. Hell i am getting letters for Leo now just like Dicky D lol. I have taken more of a backstage roll in the wiki now as Admin and left the major editing and such to others like Jeff who has done a great job on the community section. What’s funny is that as of late i have been so busy i don’t even really watch twit live anymore…i hope to change that.

Warcraft: As a friend in the game said about me stealing a phrase from WWE wrestler CM Punk “Your only addiction is wow fishing.” My love for this game knows no bounds. I am about to hit 70 for the first time ever with my long suffering Draenei Hunter RobinWolf and i could not be having more fun with my guild mates of the newly renamed The Knights of Radshire where i am an officer. I don’t drink, i don’t smoke, and i don’t do drugs….WoW is my addiction lol. Shouts to my buddy Harue since i know your crazy ass will read this :D.

KASHIN: Like a lot of my podcast endevors it’s dead….I just can’t keep up making shows to satsfy demand….instead i am going to focus more on a new website i am building and doing multimedia projects for this blog. As Kenny Rogers sings “You gotta know when to hold them…now when to fold them.”

Another Goodbye: Goodbye to Pownce…..sort of….I will be keeping my account but all my posting from this point on will be with Twitter. I have an idea for my Pownce account but that will come later :D.

/Mourn: The death of George Carlin hit me pretty damn hard. His comedy is something my family has shared for a very long time. My dad was a huge fan of his and so i became as well. My dad was a truck driver for most of my life so the time we spent watching George, TNA wrestling, or the Discovery Channel was very special to me. The death of George so close to the year anniversary of my fathers passing really hit me pretty hard. As wise man once said “Life is a series of moments and memories.”

Storms: It’s no secret i am scared shitless of storms especialy tornados. I have stood in a parking lot in the eye of a tornado as my skin was almost sandblasted off of me, I have been in a dirt basement for 4 hours in Ulysses Nebraska when one of the worst tornados to ever hit the state jumped over us, and i was standing in my aunt and uncles down stairs when a tornado droped into their backyard laying a sapling tree over flat to the ground just as i made it into the bathroom for saftey. This year alone we have had a record number of tornados including one that hit my old home of Ulysses trashing it pretty bad. I have drank bad water caused after local flooding and was sick for days off of it with something resembling disentary. I f’n hate storms and am really looking forward to Fall/Winter again.

E-fed: I am a 24 year wrestling fan…since i was 2 years old i have been watching. Growing up i was a big NWA/WCW fan and as i got older i added WWF and ECW into the mix. Now i watch all sorts of wrestling from japan, mexico, and the US and can been seen planted on my ass watching RAW every monday. Well since i have had the internet i have also been huge on e-feds which is kind of like D&D for wrestling fans. I have also enjoyed making and RPing my own feds using video games like Smackdown vs Raw. Well i stumbled upon a popular trend on youtube of making your own shows with your own wrestlers using games like SvR08 and Fire Pro Wrestling….well i have decided to give it a shot and have started building a roster of workers in SvR08 for my shows. I’ll post details and videos once things get going.

Well that is all from this brain dump..more writing and fun coming soon.

I love music so this is by far a complete list of all my favorite songs which would probably double the size of the internet with a single blog post, granted that would be cool, it’s just time consuming. So instead here is 10 songs i really love right now. Go forth and purchase…or pirate you music stealing assholes :).

10. 24th Ave Shuffle by Foxboro Hottubs

Note: Side project of my favorite band ever Green Day.

9. Original Prankster by The Offspring

Note: Had this song stuck in my head for 6 days.

8. Do or Die by Revolution Mother

Note: Mike Vallely owns my soul.

7. Write You A Song by Plain White T’s

Note: I <3 Plain White T’s..Deal with it.

6. Welcome To The Black Parade by My Chemical Romance

Note: This song is my heart beat.

5. Angels Would Fall by Melissa Etheridge

Note: Post out Melissa drops one of the greatest forbidden love songs ever.

4. Download This Song by MC Lars

Note: F The RIAA..Bonus that the chorus is done by Jaret Riddick of Bowling For Soup

3. Hot Topic Is Not Punk Rock by MC Lars

Note: Yup Twice…mostly for the speech at the end.

2. Whistles In The Wind by Flogging Molly

Note: Great song to listen to while the country goes down the crapper.

1. Miseria Cantare by AFI

Note: You…Are Now….One of Us!

So this entire article is going to sound like a giant jerk off fest for me but i am only using myself as an example. I also find it sad i have to explain that with the world being so sarcastic and judgmental these days

I have been tested in the past as a child for brain activity because of very experimental drugs i was given for SIDS as a baby. These were the first of there kind meds that ended up saving my life in the long run but may have ended up with a footprint in the rest of my life. Most of these meds i was given were variants on steroids and stimulants for brain activity to keep my lungs strong and brain activity reminding my body to keep breathing. As a result i was tested a lot as a young child for all kinds of things most of which was intelligence and development. Come to find out the doctors fears of me being slow or having issues were the exact opposite and instead i developed very quickly especially in learning. I could speak way before anyone and could read pretty well before i was even in kindergarten. I also showed super high ranks in creative thinking and problem solving. Later testing did finally cement the fact that i have a mensa level IQ mostly strong in areas of fast thinking and creative thought aka i am SUPER right brained. BTW no i never joined mensa because frankly i think they are elitist jackasses.

Fast forward a bit and my school life was horrible. Living in a tiny Nebraska town i ended up going to school way away from home in the nearest town. Problem is my family was pretty low class on income and the school was right in the heart of rich kids central. Add into this the fact i was overweight and a big geek and you can imagine my life was pretty much a Judd Apatow movie minus the geek getting the girl. In fact i now get compared a lot to Jonah Hill lol. Anyway i had some friends mostly the Freaks & Geeks style of friends because all of our lives were in massive suck. So puberty hit and that didn’t go well at all. Something that had been hiding in my brain chemistry went shit balls and i ended up starting to have bad panic attacks and becoming more and more anti social. This is the kind of shit i wish parents would look for more because you can be damn sure if they did less kids would be getting shot in schools. Lucky enough i had good parents and after and especially bad attack i went to the ER and was given a small white pill to calm me down and a talking to from the local psychiatrists to calm me down. He was the first who would diagnose me with Bi-Polar Disorder aka Manic Depression. Later sessions with a therapist would add in Social Anxiety Disorder and a few other things mostly telling me i was highly anti-social and it would be hard to change that because it was built into my code base. I was given meds that would help control the attacks and told to keep up with therapy to keep an eye on the depression.

So here i am all the smarts in the world and a brain who never shuts down and causes me all kinds of issues. The age old issue of the brilliant mind of the crazy man. The highly anti-social nature of the man who wrote snowcrash, picaso cutting off his own ear, hundreds of writers drinking themselves to death, and many more examples. The fine line between genius and insanity is not just a fancy phrase. Lucky for me i fell into a friendship before leaving high school with a person who was straight edge (fancy term for no drinking, drugs, or smoking and listening to punk music) and as someone who had never been into any of that stuff and a long time fan of punk we became pretty good friends. It was a mix of his friendship keeping me away from the easy way out of the pain i was in along with my own massive thirst for knowledge about what was wrong with me that i can now 10 years later say i have it under control. I am not some famous MIT student engineer like i was going to be but i have a pretty good life where i can be creative in all forms of art and writing.

Knowledge is a very strong thing about understanding what might be going on in your body or mind and makes it all easier to deal with. If you out there with these kind of things showing up in your life there are places to go and people to talk to about it. I have spoken with kids in the past with some of my same issues and you would be surprised how many of them have trouble just finding someone to talk to about it. If your dealing with panic attacks or depression or anything just get out there and find someone to help. There is no point to shootings, suicide, or massive substance abuse to deal with problems like these. It’s all about knowing what is going on and what you can do to make it better for you.

We’re all in this together

Peace

Hope you all love the new template as much as i do. Twitter and Pownce are also now totally integrated into the sidebar with a little widget magic.

Sometimes i wish
by Kevin

Sometimes i wish i was the jock
Strong, brave, and ready
No thoughts of others or even themselves
Just muscles, glory, and conquests
Sometimes i wish i was the jock

Sometimes i wish i was the girl
Soft, mothering, and true
Thoughts of everyone over herself
Loving, caring, and free
Sometimes i wish i was the girl

Sometimes i wish i was the nerd
Awkward, smart, and terrified
Thoughts of everything but themselves
Brilliant, under appreciated, anti-social
Sometimes i wish i was the nerd

Sometimes i am glad that i am me
Imperfect, funny, helpful
Thoughts of family over myself
Smart, broken, and human
I am always glad i am me

I wrote this a long while back after first getting into IPTV and indy media. Weird to see what has changed.

Ultimate Showdown of IPTV Superiority (Parody Of Lemon Demmon’s The Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny)

by Shinmaryuu

Old DoubleD was sitting around

TechTV like a big playground

when suddenly KRose burst from the shade

and hit DoubleD with a Idea so great

DoubleD toked up and they started to film

thebroken was born and on the attack

who can forget the free pizza and Ramzi Hack

but now the broken was gone this is true


Kevin brought in Alex for a whole new feel

Revision3 was born with a Diggnation apeal

but before they could make it straight to the top

Hak5 episode 1 came out with a pop

Darren Kitchen, Wess Tobler, and Allicat

and blew IPTV away with a half assed hak

before they knew it they were on there way

Open Alpha is next to game the day away


This is the Ultimate Showdown of IPTV Superiority

Video Bloggers, IPTVers, and Vidcasters as far as the eye can see

And they all will survive, That’s just the way it will be

This is the Ultimate Showdown of IPTV Superiority


A girl gamer it’s about dang time

Jenn Cutter’s her name and that’s just fine

DLTV is up next yes Pattrick came back

Robert is there too with his lab in black

the show is great, so you better get ready

Ask a Ninja is quite deadly

I think Hope Is Emo is the next to get ripped

They are made by the same guys ain’t that a trip


I’ll let you catch up if you falling behind

open up iTunes and prepare to hit find

The More Input Show can not be missed

The 1UP Show either with it’s gaming twist

Bre Pettis is cool but it’s not MAKE’s fault

Phill Torrone and MAKE are just cool by default

Here’s a fun fact, when CFH canada comes on the air

Jenn Cutter and Hak5 can both be seen there, oooh


This is the Ultimate Showdown of IPTV Superiority

Video Bloggers, IPTVers, and Vidcasters as far as the eye can see

And they all will survive, That’s just the way it will be

This is the Ultimate Showdown…


they may be quite broke and drive a Ford Tarus

but there low budjet shows shall never bore us

Network tv is calling it quits on there phones

and people are begging for there IPTV Jones

the network is down, writhing in pain

RSS is flowing and IPTV is winning the game

you can sit back and watch as the bandwidth fly

all network tv can do is sit back and cry


then Gibson the hacker and Louis the cook and

Kyle from pure pwnage that guy is real bright and

Alex Lindsy and Amber Mac the sweetie and

Math Club Chris and Michael Virdi

Da Poorboys, the Frederator, Techcentric, and Andy Walker

Dosman, on10, every single NerdTVer

Cody P. Christian and The greatest StepOne,

BSoD, Cali Lewis, Doc Tiki, and the new broken

Network TV was going down fast

As IPTV stepped up and kicked it’s boring ass

the people had spoke and they liked what they saw

the forums and IRC were both in awe


and the fight raged on for a century

IPTV had finaly won, but eventually

the champion stood, the rest saw their mentor:

Leo Leport in a bright red sweater


This is the Ultimate Showdown of IPTV Superiority

Video Bloggers, IPTVers, and Vidcasters as far as the eye can see

And they all will survive, That’s just the way it will be

this is the Ultimate Showdown…

this is the Ultimate Showdown…

this is the Ultimate Showdown…

of IPTV Superiority